So many things happening lately..and even more events will be up round the corner. Anw, just to let u know that I survived through the ants and mud in FTB camp. yay. And I managed to meet some awesome people. I really hope that people in mango jango will be my long lasting friends in uni and beyond...not like my previous orientation group. University is so happenning that it's becoming kind of scary for me. Even more so when i decided to listen to 'Fifteen' by Taylor swift. Funny though. When you listen to same song at fifteen and older, you actually have completely different feelings about it. At fifteen, tbh, i really had no idea what it meant and simply loved the nostalgic feel of the tune. Then later on in jc, the main lyrics of the song that i resonated with was 'you'll do greater things than dating the boy on the football team'. But now, i'm starting to understand the lyrics better. "time can heal most anything", "hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you.." and "and you might just find who you're suppose to be". But so many of these things you really wouldn't know at fifteen. Even if you heard them, you wouldn't really understand it. Am i making sense? xD But i gotta admit that this song really saved me. Back then all i wanted was really to be wanted, but this song served as a reminder and warning to me that in life there are other more important things to do and some mistakes cannot be erased so don't make them. It really saved me alot more heartaches than most other girls. So i really recommend girls to listen to this song...even if you don't quite understand it. Right now, my focus is not so much hoping for a guy, but to really find who i'm suppose to be, what i'm suppose to do, who i'm suppose to help. This is one question that i've been trying to avoid and today, i realised that to be truly happy, i need to address this one big question that many people might just spend their whole life searching an answer for. Let's just start by starting college with an open mind and heart. A real challenge for me.